Stable Hand

I just noticed it's been 5 days since the last post. That's mostly because I am becoming slowly more stable every day. Without dehydration in the mix, the medications seem to be doing a pretty fair job of handling my depression and mania.

Is this right, though? Is it possible Doc hit the right combination of drugs this fast? I read blogs and journals and forum posts of other afflicted souls and shiver in empathy with their tales of months, years, even decades of trail and error - mostly error - in getting their "meds" correct, when and if they ever get the chemicals to balance out.

So am I not as sick as I thought? I feel like a bipolar slacker at times. I mean, I've had the mania, felt the euphoria, stayed up for days on end and driven from NC to Texas via Pensacola, talked to God (and more importantly, He talked back) , raced a Porsche through the Tennessee mountains (in a Honda Civic - and won), heard the voices and saw the halos; and on the on other end I had the all-day crying jags, planned (but never attempted) suicide, and spent the week in my pajamas. I guess I'm either very lucky to have stayed out of jail and/or hospital, or very good at coping with the symptoms of manic-depression all these years. Or both.

In any case, the sexual side-effects, which I never really discussed, have abated, I'm sleeping well (too well, up to 12 hours per day - I must still be depressed underneath the anti-depressant) , and the "crazy-legs" and restlessness from the Pristiq are at least tolerable, if not exactly comfortable. With Pristiq I'm not floating in a marshmallow reality as much as with Lexipro, although my pillows still feel quite cushy and Mary's skin is sooooo nice.

Oddly, the left-right disassociation is still here, and the left-brain/right-side is still getting the messages a few milliseconds faster than the right-brain/left-side